Snapshot Pieces of the World

I am what I am.

2010-02-16T00:34:00.004+08:00

The time has come yet again for me to make a choice, a stand, a decision.

No matter what, I choose to be true to myself.

Getting Through It

2010-01-07T00:27:00.003+08:00

That was a tough one.

Come on in and stop for a second to shake your head, dust yourself off, and look back at how far you’ve come.

Sure, it’s been a long year. Some crushing lows slapped you and smacked you around. There were times your heart dipped and you squinted back tears while your stomach squeezed so tightly you couldn’t sleep. There were moments you walked around in a glossy-eyeball daze — when loved ones hurt, friends didn’t stay, or someone dear to your heart slowly drifted away.

Sleepless nights, stressful nights, with teething babies, slurring customers, bad bosses, bickering boyfriends, or blank computer screens. You were feeling and you were dealing and you were reeling and you were healing.

But as you walked your hard path down your long and bumpy road some little drops of confidence dripped like coffee into your head and into your heart. As you stumbled and got back up a quiet inner strength slowly seeped into your bones. And as you climbed over obstacles set in your way some relaxed satisfaction and growing self-awareness glimmered like bright lights at the bottom of your stomach.

Yes, this year changed you and grew you in so many ways you don’t even feel or notice yet. As you struggled you empathized, as you slipped you understood, as you worked you earned…

… as you looked you learned

… … as you dared you grew

… … … and as you jumped you flew.

Your dreams are still focusing and your passion is growing. Your energy is still bubbling and your story keeps going.

You’ve been through so much and gained a year’s supply of experience along the way. You’re stronger than you were last year and stronger than you realize. Sure, there were times you bent, but you definitely didn’t break. There were times you caved, but you definitely didn’t flake.

Listen up: you got bigger, you got better, and you got the scars to prove it.

So stop for a second today to smile and look back at everything you’ve done this year… everything you’ve seen… everywhere you’ve been…

You’ve taken more illegal naps and had more blurry-eyed late nights.

You’ve danced to more wedding songs and smiled at more beautiful sights.

You’ve seen more scorching sunsets and heard more head-bopping songs.

You’ve tripped a few times, but baby, you kept rolling right along.

Yes, you’ve hugged more old friends and kissed some brand new pretty faces.

You’ve cheered more on the sidelines and visited some brand new pretty places.

You tasted more meals, you got more deals, and you’ve sniffed more flower blossoms.

And you made it all the way through this year because you’re so completely

AWESOME!

Taken from the website- http://1000awesomethings.com/

An Unexpected Gift...

2009-12-27T01:59:00.005+08:00

A long, long time ago... I can still remember.

8 number of years past
The scene was of the canteen on a cool afternoon
I was at the drinks store in the corner
Casually mentioned that the toy was really cute

Went off to play without a care,
or a second thought
As sunset called for time to go home
Came running back to retrieve my forsaken bag

And on top of it was gently placed,
this little toy of Sylvester and Tweety.

I never got to know who the giver was
But I am reminded again this Christmas,
that it's not about the receiving, but of the giving.

To the person who gave me the unexpected gift,
I thank you

For you gave me much more than you probably know.

Midnight Emo Ramblings...

2009-12-14T00:59:00.003+08:00

你是我的唯一

很想給妳寫封信告訴妳這裡的天氣

昨夜的那一場電影還有我的心情

很想給妳寫封信卻只是想想而已

我已經不能肯定妳是不是還會關心

愛與不愛都需要勇氣於是我們都選擇了逃避

愛與不愛都需要勇氣於是我們都選擇了逃避

或許妳不相信我很滿意這樣的結局

或許妳不相信我沒有一絲的埋怨和悔意

雖然妳是我的最初

雖然妳是我的最終

雖然妳是我的唯一

"To love or not to love, it both takes courage. That's why we chose to run away."
This song was mentioned in the sermon today and the song got stuck in my head.

Why do people always like to run away and not face the issue?
Don't they know that once you start running, you will always be running away from the problem and never getting over it?
What if one side decides to stay and face it but the other runs?

That must be the suckiest feeling in the world, to be left stranded trying to solve a problem that requires both to be involved. It's like trying to clap with one hand.

Thinking through, I think I know how God feels about us pesky humans now... haha.

What do you see?

2009-12-11T00:10:00.001+08:00

An optimist is a person who sees only the lights in the picture, whereas a pessimist sees only the shadows. An idealist, however, is one who sees the light and the shadows, but in addition sees something else: the possibility of changing the picture, of making the lights prevail over the shadows.

21 Guns

2009-11-29T16:33:00.003+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

The first two lines just blew me away...
Sometimes it is just best to let go and give up coz the fight is just not worth it...

Fitting In......

2009-11-28T00:52:00.002+08:00

Some changes happening around me now...

Sometimes I really wonder, am I trying to fit into shoes that are waay too big for me?

Work.

2009-10-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

Work has been crazily busy, making me feel like a dehydrated piece of fruit, utterly squeezed out of all juices - brain and body.

Just hope that at the end of it all, things will turn out much sweeter than it seems.

HDB: Houses Dat are Beautiful...

2009-08-13T22:25:00.006+08:00

Hey peeps,

know my blog has been on the freezer for the past months. It was partly due to Blogger refusing to let me upload my pictures and my busy work life...But not to worry because I'm back!

Shall start over again by this post that has been swimming in my head since a long time ago.

I've heard people telling me that the Singapore landscape is blah... that everything looks the same and uniformed, especially the mass housing blocks we all live in called the HDB.

But I beg to differ.

A walk around the island and a closer look will let you realise that not all housing blocks are the same. At least for me, each of the HDB blocks below has its own unique character and architectural flavour. See if you can guess where they are! :)

I love rainbows!

This one is painted in nationalistic colours.

Reminds me of some modern surreal painting.

The shit will pass and Life will Glow...

2009-03-22T22:12:00.009+08:00

You know how sometimes you have one of those days when everything just seems to go wrong? Well, I just had one of those weeks when Murphy decided to use me as a guinea pig to test out his laws!

At the end of it, this song I just sang today came to mind.
That despite everything, at least I still have Someone who is in control, who knows my thoughts, who sees my every step and loves me all the way.

He has been good to me and that is enough. Hallelujah! :)

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

(He decided to send me another one to cheer me up since I didn't manage to catch the last one on camera :))

As You open my eyes to the work of Your Hand...

In my life, Your will be done.

Inspiring...

2009-03-10T23:05:00.003+08:00

Convocation address by Adrian Tan at NTU 2008, Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information

Life and How to Survive It

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It's a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you've already won her heart, you don't need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You're done learning.

You've probably been told the big lie that "Learning is a lifelong process" and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters' degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don't you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeated customers.

The good news is that they're wrong.

The bad news is that you don't need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You're in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I'm here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There's very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you'll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they're 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn't meet their life expectancy.

I'm here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it's calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don't need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life's a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don't expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term "Karoshi", which means death from overwork. That's the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there's nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There's a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are "making a living". No, they're not. They're dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan "Arbeit macht frei" was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remaining sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn't do that, I would've been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don't imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I'll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don't, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I'm not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. This is also a great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It's not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it's often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one's own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn't say "be loved". That requires too much compromise. If one changes one's looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It is far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the true worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn't happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You're going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there's no life expectancy.

(After reading the convocation message, it brings to my mind the particular quote below. I discovered it many years ago together with a friend in a quiet neighbourhood bookstore. Because camera phones were not existent then, we had to manually hand copy it on to a scrap of foolscap paper, and make sure the bookstore owner wasn't looking at the same time! Those were the days......... But at least the quote still remains in my memory til today. Hope you find this as inspiring as I did and still do!)

"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark
should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry rot.
I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow,
than a sleepy and permanent planet. The proper function of man is to live,
not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them.
I shall use my time."
--Jack London, American Author

Interview With God

2009-02-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

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I saw a rainbow yesterday evening. A big beautiful shining bow of seven multicolours.
And I was reminded that He is there, always. :)

Starswirlz presents: Mr Leon's 2008 perspectives

2009-01-30T00:18:00.003+08:00

Just saw this video my classmate did and just had to showcase it here. So cool!

Okay, my geog classmates are officially some of the most creative sparks I have ever met.

I miss mulu!

2008-12-29T23:45:00.004+08:00

Reason Why - Rachael Yamagata

Reason Why - Rachael Yamagata

I think about how
it might have been
We'd spend our days travelin'
It's not that I don't understand you
It's not that I don't want to be with you
but you only wanted me
The way you wanted me

So I will head out alone,
and hope for the best
We can hang our heads down
as we skip the goodbyes
and you can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I
know the reason why

I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there

I'll buy a magazine searching for your face
From coast to coast, or whatever I find my place
I'll track you on the radio
and I'll sign your list in a different name
But as close as I get to you
It's not the same

So, I will head out alone
and hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
we can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I
know the reason why

I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there

So, steal the show, and do your best
to cover the tracks that I have left
I wish you well,
and hope you find
whatever you're looking for
The way I might've changed my mind
but you only showed me the door

so I will, head out alone
hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
and say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
we can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I
You and I...
You and I...

know the Reason Why

Dreams...

2008-11-23T22:30:00.001+08:00

When I was in secondary school, I tried to imagine myself in the future. I imagined myself working in an office, with people that motivated me to strive for the best, in a real job that makes a difference to lives. I have always believed that we should work for something that we believe in.
It's not enough to simply be good at what you do, we have to be good for something.
Coz if we don't believe in what we are doing, then whatever work we do becomes useless and irrelevant. The trick is to start finding out ways in liking the work that we do (that is if changing jobs is not a feasible option)

A decade later, I am quite happy to say that I have found a job that I believe in (even if people may think otherwise haha...)
Life has been great so far and I look forward to achieving new goals and learning new skills I never knew I had.
Life is all about choices and I choose to see opportunities where others see obstacles.

Only pity is that cameras are not allowed in my workplace which means a significant lack of pictures for this blogspace.
(This is especially saddening when I have biscuit snacks in the office named 'best tambons' that I cannot get a picture of!)

The Wheel of Life...

2008-09-16T00:11:00.006+08:00

Life is a funny little thing.
I like to imagine it as this big giant Ferris Wheel that all of us are on.
Sometimes you're up high and sometimes you're down low.
When at the bottom, we take comfort in knowing that things will look up soon.
Conversely when at the top, we should not become proud and get too comfortable,
coz we may fall down at any time.

I realised that as we get older,
I see and learn much more about this wheel of life as we go along.
I've seen people meeting, people leaving,
people getting together, people breaking up,
people living their dreams, people dying.
Every ending is the start of something new,
since every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end,
just that we may not know it yet.

But throughout it all, what matters most are the people beside you.
Those who have been sitting along side on the same ride all this time.
Afterall, life would be much less fun and way more lonely if you don't have people to ride out the lows and enjoy the highs with.
What joy is there in being on top alone and having to face sorrows by one's self?

For that I wanna thank all those people who have taken that ferris ride with me at one point or another. Thank you my fellow riders! haha...
You have made my life a much more enjoyable ride to be on because of you.
For those who may be at a low point in their lives, don't worry,
the wheel will turn soon and things will look up once more.
Remember, you are not alone and that you still have people like me in that ferris carriage with you to give you all the support you need ok! Jiayou!

If Heaven and Hell decide

That they both are satisfied

Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you

When your soul embarks

Then I'll follow you into the dark

Then I'll follow you into the dark

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

- 1 Cor 13:13

Have a Heart...

2008-09-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

A youtube music video that I happened to come across late in the night that gave me jitters coz she is really that good... Another one with a song that sends pangs straight to the heart man.. Listen for yourself...

Anna Bergendahl performs "Have a Heart"on Swedish Idol.
Can you believe she's only 16 years old?

2008-08-20T15:27:00.002+08:00

Once again, the answer boils down to a four letter word.

The Perfect Heart

2008-08-11T00:21:00.001+08:00

Author:Unknown

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said “Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine.” The crowd and the young man looked at the old man’s heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn’t fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared - how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man’s heart and saw its state and laughed. “You must be joking,” he said. “Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears.”

“Yes,” said the old man, “Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren’t exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn’t returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?”

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man’s heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man’s heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side.

How sad it must be to go through life with a whole untouched heart.

Have you ever given a piece of your heart away?

Moments...

2008-08-06T02:31:00.001+08:00

As the clock ticks noisily and the moments pass without a glance backwards, my mind wanders through a myriad of events. Past and present encounters flash pass the cinematic screen of my mind’s eye. I got to thinking about the topic of pivotal moments. Landmark events, life-changing scenes or crucial pit-stops in our lives that happened to turn our whole world around. That particular instance which steered us in a direction that would have been totally different if it had never occur.

Mainly, I was musing over the exact moment in relationships, be it friendships or love that sealed the deal. What was the drop that tipped over the barrel of water? When was the instant that it happened? The moment when you decide, “Yes! This is it. This is the brick that seals the foundation of our friendship. This is the reason why I’m entrusting my heart to this person, whole and completely.”

And after that particular moment in time when all seems to stop and revolve around that significant event, your relationship has not looked back since.

I’ve come to realize that I have had and heard about a few of these moments...

The moment when no words are exchanged in a time of grief and painful memories, only to have someone who cries silently beside you coz that is the only comfort he knows and the only thing you need.

To hear the words uttered in love that your heart knew but forgot.

To have someone whom you have been thinking about all day suddenly and miraculously appear before you at the most unexpected time and place.
Like a bus stop.

To feel a tap on your shoulder and turn around to meet the grinning face of someone you have been worrying about for the longest time.

The moment when you open the mailbox to discover a love letter sent from afar, together with a present made perfect in its imperfection just because it was delivered with love.

To have someone who not only stands by you when the rest walk away, but who also stands up against them and defends you in a time when you have no friends.

Small things that make a whole lotta of difference. It seems that the simple things are also the most profound. Maybe because when loving gestures, serendipity and fierce loyalty are concocted together into a potent mix, they cease to be mere things or coincidences.

They become the catalyst for souls to reach out and touch one another,

even if it is just for that moment.

The Road Less Travelled...

2008-07-16T16:20:00.001+08:00

It has come to a point in time when there is an opportunity of choice.
A sudden plethora of paths to choose from,
multiple layers of tracks that lead to very different destinations.
Some seem broad and straight, while others are narrow and lead off to the dark unknown.
What they all share is this ambiguious quality, of a kind of distortion,
that you cannot be quite sure what it really is until you take it.

Narrow or Straight? That is the question.

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.”

-Robert Frost

Sometimes I think I just need to do what is in my heart instead of what is in my head.
And I do hope it makes all the difference.

Something's missing...oh yah it's you and you and you!

2008-06-16T06:07:00.000+08:00

Just a short note here from London to whoever might be reading this. I miss you all! Haha..just went through a couple of blogs and facebook pictures just reminded me of that void I've been feeling. Then I realised it's coz I'm missing all you people back in Singapore after being away for so long! Oh man, the things I've encountered. (From almost having to spend the night sleeping at the train station coz I got locked out to having to use a plug out in the hotel corridor to boil water coz the bleddy room doesn't have a socket!) Long stories. Can't wait to spill it all out to you guys once I get back. Until then, don't do finish all the fun stuff without me ah!

See you soon when I get back on the 19th june.

Shivering in the kitchen,

Me

Ever since the last day of school...

2008-05-27T16:30:00.002+08:00

in case you have been wondering what I have been up to,

I have been...

taking the time to just admire the seasonal changes,
as the trees turn from green to yellow and crimson.

Standing there in the middle of the windswept road laden with fallen autumn leaves,
just breathing and absorbing the nice weather of Melbourne.

exercising. (well, almost something like that!)

Doing star jumps just for the fun of it at the beach with a friend.

smelling the grass. taking a nap. just lying there for the moment at the park.

playing with kangaroos and getting back with nature. haha.

feeding the birds by the waterside.

Enjoying the harbour and the silhouettes of yachts' narrow sails against the Sydney city skyline.

Sipping a cappuccino while watching people waddle by.

lastly, just sitting still and reflecting,
gazing at the beautiful scene as the sun dips behind the urban icons of the city.

That, to me is what life is all about anyway.
Though reality has something else in store for me.

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”

- Paulo Coelho

The Middle

2008-05-02T12:45:00.003+08:00

Just got to listen to this classic song of my secondary school days again...
Love the lyrics, it never fails to encourage me.

The Middle- Jimmy Eat World

Hey,
Don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out,
Or looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright. (alright)

Hey,
You know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough (good enough)
For someone else.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out, (feel left out)
Or looked down on.
Just do your best, (just do your best)
Do everything you can. (do everything you can)
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts (bitter hearts)
Are gonna say.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright. (alright)

Self Reminder

2008-04-29T00:52:00.001+08:00

In the midst of studying and trying to memorize all the facts about Singapore's geology, lithology and rock forms... I seem to have forgotten the Rock of my life.

Time to come back to relying on that ever faithful and reliable source of support man...

With me all seems impossible, but with Him everything is possible!

Jiayou to everyone stuck in this exam rut!

I'm gonna blow that horn for help righttt about nooow....

The Finishing Line...

2008-04-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

1,2,3,4 years of uni.......going going gone.

It's almost coming to an end. I've been so busy enjoying myself that I've forgotten there's a finishing line to end all of this. That we are all in a cap race where most of us have started strolling to admire the scenery. Haha...someone told me that the funniest people also tend to be the most emo people. Well today as I'm writing my very last essay, my very last assignment in 16 years,
a flood of feelings are washing over me.

I hope that those who started this race with me will finish it together with me.
And as we walk pass that finishing line,
we'll continue walking beside each other
not as classmates anymore, but as lifelong friends.

Who's with me?

P.S: yo Lcc you Tissuepaper! if ur reading this pls give me an sms! I need to see that you are alive!

Just for entertainment...

2008-04-15T01:07:00.001+08:00

Okie... I have been contemplating for a while now on whether I should post this here. It has a high potential of wiping away whatever scrap of reputation I have left and may probably make some view me in a different light. I'd like to make clear I'm still the same as before, maybe just more misunderstood than ever. (Haha... oh well, whatever makes people happy.)

聪明的人喜欢猜心，

虽然会猜对

但往往失去自己的心。

傻气的人常常给心，

虽然被人笑

但却得到了别人的心。

I guess I don't mind sacrificing a bit and be a joke,
if it lets someone smile for a while.

This is for all those who have just completed long strenuous essays (HTs/Isms), or those who are still in the midst of more work, whoever who may be in a need to de-stress or something to laugh at...

Presenting Clarissa's classic (mis)qoutes!............................

Mulu, Sarawak fieldtrip

(As the class was taking a break, we were waiting for two of my project mates who went with the guides to find the intersecting point where the rivers meet, so that we could test the geochemistry of the waters with a multi-channel probe. The two of them (Ms S and Mr Hy) came back a while later, looking slightly flustered with all the rushing of things)

Me to them: So did you find the part that joins?

Turns to Mr Hy: Did you manage to put that (stick ie. probe) thing in?

Geolab

(I wanted to transfer some photo files from my friend’s laptop)

Me to Ms J: Can I stick my thumb in your drive?

Ms E: I also want!

Me: With so many stuck inside, will become congested a not?

At the bookstore, Popular

(I was searching for a replacement eraser since I lost mine and happen to come across a box of the type of erasers recommended by my brother）

Me: Ooooh…my brother uses this type of rubber coz 比较好插!

At Din Tai Feng

(While eating a delicious xiaolongbao, the juice of that bun shoots out of the spoon…)

Me: Arrgghh…it squirted wrongly!

Cue stunned silence.

Me (being oblivious and irritated): I should have put the whole thing in my mouth!

Later……as I began to tackle the larger size shrimp dumpling…

Mr H: So are you gonna try to put the whole thing in your mouth this time?

Me: Cannot lah…it’s too big!

The next time you see me in class, I'll most probably be wearing a mask and not answer your call. But considering that tomorrow is the last geog lecture of my life, the odds are on my side that I wouldn't have to put a paper bag over my head for too long..ahah~!

P.S: See evil-tofu, my chinese can be power also too!

P.P.S: For people who don't get the jokes, it's okay... it's actually better this way!

Differences...

2008-04-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

What happens when you find someone or something in someone that is so different from you that you just find it difficult/ impossible to accept?

How do you cope with it?
Do you avoid? Reject completely? Fake being nice while secretly cursing and be like what someone told me, "smile nicely outside and die bitterly inside"?
Haha...

Maybe if we just bothered to bend down our heads and take time to get to know others who we deem to belong to another "species", we may actually achieve a level of understanding, then tolerance, and over time... acceptance?

Pure acceptance is not tolerance.
If we accepted it, than there's nothing to tolerate in the first place!

I guess tolerance is not condoning what we don't like but still accepting the person for who he/she is. Not liking what we see but still treating the other person as a person.
Easier said than done but we still need to try.
Who knows, if everybody tried than we can all be like that nickelback song:

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day that nobody died

That will be the day when we are

"Acknowledging differences, accepting differences,
until differences make no difference anymore."

*pardon me coz I just completed a philosophy paper on tolerance that drove me into ponder-mode*

When Hunger strikes...

2008-04-09T19:42:00.002+08:00

After spending the earlier part of the day working, I had a sudden urge for spaghetti and so in a spur of a moment, I decided to whip up a pan of that Italian pasta for my hungry tummy. Gosh! Thinking back, it must have been ages since I last cook that stuff.
(A quick scan through my previous blog posts revealed that the last mention of me cooking was almost 2 years ago in 2006! *audible gasps!*)

I recommend this 'Thai Sing' brand of Chilli Crab sauce for anyone interested in whipping up a killer treat. Just a few spoonfuls of this paste is enough to give any pasta a fiery kick..shiok!

And so after managing to scoff down that entire pan of pasta, (I can't believe I was that hungry!) my mind was somehow afloat with more images of food that I have tasted and eaten over the years. What can I say, once a foodie, always a foodie. It's a natural past time for Singaporeans.
Anyway I made a list of the best food experiences I have had so far.
If given a chance I want to do it all over again!
These are:

Paper Steamboat at Sakae Sushi. Four greedy souls picking away at that pot of nabe and slurping til the last drop of soup is gone. What made it better still was that it was freee!

Pretty cupcakes at Paisley & Cream, Clark Quay Central.
$5 for a cupcake and hot drink set with a river view and good company, what's there not to like!

Beef Goulash at Soup Spoon. The soup that I always order when I'm there.
Mr HJJ seems to be particularly enamoured by this dish as well though my new love there now is actually the 'Garlic Buttons'. (Breaded button mushrooms stuffed with mozzarella cheese dipped in garlic butter...*drools*)

Currywurst in Berlin. Costing only 1 Euro (S$2), a long sausage sliced into pieces with lots of curry powder, ketchup and red sauce, served piping hot in the cold winter weather.
The Ultimate heart warmer.

Tiramisu in Munich. A huge block of that dessert soaked in good espresso and spiked with lots of alcoholic rum. Yum!

Gyros in Greece. Ten times better than the expensive and dry kebabs we have in Singapore and also twice as cheap. Fresh garden vegetables of tomatoes, purple onions, crunchy lettuce paired with soft tender juicy kebab meat with a slathering of mayo all wrapped up in a Gyro.
Plus....
The Greek guy serving them was also quite hunky like the meat!
See picture below...heeheehee...

Okie that's all for now..time for dinner!

GE4000: Living in the Geography Department

2008-04-03T00:59:00.002+08:00

A Random sample mapping of a day in my present life...

9am: Wake up, spend a few minutes recollecting what I have to do.
10am: Make way to school
11am: Arrive at Geography Honours Room, grunt greetings to fellow inhabitants
12pm: Geography Honours Room, mulling around some project or another
1pm: Lunch at the deck canteen
2pm: Back at Geography Honours Room
2.15pm: Leave to pee
2.45pm: Leave to throw rubbish
3pm: Engage in some part-time work as a photocopying pirate
4pm: Geography Honours Room, continue with 10% project discussion, 30% random fits of laughter and 60% irrelevant conversation
6.30pm: Cue audible ramblings of hungry classmate(s)'s stomach
7pm: Dinner at (insert faculty) canteen
7.45pm: Geography Honours Room to collect bags
8pm: Colonialization of yet another geographical space..the Geolab!
10pm: Make way home.
12mn: At home to blog this down.

I am officially grounded in Geography.

But surprisingly, I quite enjoy it. If given the same scenario in the time context of a few years back when I was in Year 2/3, I know i would have cursed and swear and dread every minute of it.
But not now.
Perhaps it's in knowing that these really are the last days of school that I will ever have. Perhaps it's in the gradual appreciation of the academic vigour, the intellectual stimulating debates and all the thought-provoking theories that the school offers.
More importantly, perhaps it's the sudden realization of how much I will miss the places which we can call our own, the people who are a big part of it and the friendships that have been forged through torture and laughter, sickness and health, life and death, rivers and batshit.

As the saying goes, it's the little things that count the most.

-- All the long late nights we spent in school trying to complete assignments. Just knowing that we are all in it together is comfort and a reassurance in itself. An unspoken form of support.

-- Getting tickled into peals of laughter by the atrocious misuse of the English language, both written and spoken! "Chek JaVa", "Alway", "LaBtop", and a classic line
"My friend can't eat, coz she's Halal!"
(you know who you are. wahaha! *jingles-in-glee*:P)

-- More laughter at said person's antics and expressions.

-- Even more side-splitting-stomach-pain-laugh-til-speechless when while trying to mimic said person's sighing expression, a sushi pops out of the mouth like a merlion fountain from fellow laugh-er!

-- Laughing. Laughing at people. Being laughed at By people.

-- Mass communal dinners.

-- Finding the unexpected connection with another person through a common (dis)interest. Be it music, religion, food, hobby, people, etc...

-- Holding a msn conversation with the person(s) who is sitting right beside/in front of you!
(Funnier still if we are all complaining about the people who are in the same room !)

-- Coming up with funny nicknames for classmates and then checking dictionary.com for the various translations!

-- Taking silly photos all over school

-- Making silly videos while dancing on a wobbly concrete slab of pavement, only to find out later that we were facing the open window of a room full of people attending a tutorial right beside us!

-- Seeing familiar friendly faces when stepping into class and

-- Being greeted with an over-enthusiastic, over-the-top, loud-hailer shout of
"Hi Clarissaaaaaaaaaaaaa..!!"
(The same zealous greeting person also accuses me of being a stalker when in fact, I'm like jack beside her towering bean-STALk lah! When we first met, I was effectively talking to a chest bone which probably explains why I didn't get any response nor acknowledgement of my presence. *haha.. I'm so gona be whacked if she saw this but luckily I don't think she reads my blog* heng!)

There are many many more...all the little stories and encounters etched into the pages of my memory. I wonder how many of these lines of friendship and bonds will remain unbroken after graduation.
Guess only time can tell.

Venting/ Venn-ing

2008-03-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I just feel so caught in the middle.

Sunset

2008-03-24T00:19:00.001+08:00

Nus Computer Centre

Started off the day in a crappy mood.
Lack of sleep, looming deadlines, a gamut of emotions and politics to navigate through.
Mental curses rang in my head the whole day.
A million and one things gone wrong.
Just as I was stepping out to head home after a long dreary day,

a sunset exploded in my face with its beauty and fiery orange glows illuminating the sky.

Guess it's God's way of telling me He's still there. :)

Horton

2008-03-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

"A Person is Still a Person, No Matter How Small."

Just went to watch this movie today. It reaffirmed my love for Dr Seuss and his stories once again. Lots of laughs, bright colours and a whimsical riot of characters. Absolute fun with a moral to take home in the end. I really think that sometimes children's books are the ones which give the most thought-provoking philosophical questions and answers packaged in the most simplest way.

Take for an instance the moral of the story, Horton. The quote about
"A person is still a person, no matter how small." just speaks to me on so many levels. Literally, Figuratively and also in direct Chinese translation! (haha..if you're not sure why, just ask me personally)
Everyone matters, anybody can make a difference. (if they want to)

No matter how small (size/status/age/mandarin translation) a person is,
he/she is still a person and so should be treated fairly as one.

Two Sheep

2008-03-17T14:07:00.002+08:00

Yesterday’s sermon told the story of two sheep. Since the sermon was in chinese, I shall attempt to do a translation in my own words...haha.

The Story of BaaBaa the black sheep and BaiBai the white sheep.

One day, BaaBaa met BaiBai and a conversation started.

From the start, BaaBaa started to boast:

“Hello Ah Bai! Long time no see. You know, I have been enjoying myself to the fullest and life is the best! Every day, I can go to the stream nearby for a refreshing drink of clear water early in the morning. Then, I get to graze happily all day on the large patch of green grass beside the water. Just ahead of the grassland, there is a long and wide valley where I can move about freely in and out of the area as I fancy. I have all the things I need. I can do what I want, as I like, and nothing can stop me. Isn’t my life the greatest?”

BaiBai thought for a while, then asked:

“You seem to be having the best things in life. You have all the freedom to move around as you please, to relax when you want to and you don’t have to worry about food or drink. You don’t seem to be lacking in anything at all and I’m sure there are many who would be envious of your life!

But then allow me to ask you something,

What if the stream you rely on for water runs dry one day?

What if there is a drought and all the green grass dies off?

What if a pack of wolves come attacking through that straight valley path?

What happens then?”

BaaBaa couldn’t answer, so he did the natural thing that came to him. He turned the tables around and asked the same questions back.

“So BaiBai, what would you do then?”

Bai Bai replied:

“ I do not have a fresh stream that I can drink from every day. Neither do I have a patch of grazing grass to call my own. The paths I trod on are usually narrow and winding, with rocks and pebbles sometimes getting in the way. Life is not always easy.

But, what I do have is a Shepard who loves me and who provides for me.

He calls my name and I follow. He leads me to green pastures and quiet waters. If there is an attack from wild beasts, my Shepard fights them off for me and is willing to use His own life to protect mine. I may not have everything but I know I have the One who provides all things.”

In the story, the green grass, fresh water and freedom can be used as analogies to many things in life that we think is needed in order to be happy- money, fame, prestige, status, recognition, academic results etc... We put such a high importance on to these things and try our hardest to achieve them. Once gotten, we think that life has reached its peak.
But what happens when the thing that we have built our entire lives on crumbles and fades?

At least for me, I know I have found my Shepard.

Have you?

Time of my Life......

2008-03-12T12:13:00.002+08:00

Got inspired by all the emo emails, emo leon. And so I decided to do a little something on my part to gush about our geography honours class as well! I'm having the time of my life right now..I hope you do too!

Dedicated to My Class, my friends....

Urban class

Tracy's house

Greenday- Time of Your Life

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Fm 5.1! (a.k.a the 'Green' people)

Greedy girl!

our mulu dormitory (can't believe the name!)

by the stream

class soccer matchday

I'm taller for once!

No other class holds three BBQs within a span of less than a year. (PGP/Tracy/Loyang)

No other class gets to travel overseas together often on the pretext of 'academic' reasons. (Bintan/Mulu/Thailand/Malaysia)

No other class has lecturers added as friends on facebook. (Pow added me!)

No other class can lose a game, yet walk away feeling like the world's biggest winners.

Lastly, no other class will actually bother to stay back after a gruelling examination despite looking all shagged, unglam, nerdy, grouchy, half-dead, undead, unkempt, unawake...
just to take a united group photo!

No other class but Ours :)

What you see is not what you get......

2008-03-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

So there we were on the flight from KL-Kuching, midway on our 10 hour flight route and practically starving since we started off at 6am.

Lunch came in a pretty box and we greeted it eagerly. The one beside me made some comment about how environmentally unfriendly it was but concluded that it would make quite a nice container to store barang barang in such as t-shirts, socks, underwear…etc.

Whatever. It was all small talk before we tackle the munchies!

I opened the box cover before me to find- yogurt (yuck!), a cup of water, a dry looking pandan muffin and a cute cubic container labeled “Sandwic”.

Thinking it to be what you usually get for sandwiches, (you know, the thing with meaty fillings squashed between two slices of bread) I immediately attacked what I thought would be the answer to my hunger.

Alas! Things were not what they seem to be…

Presenting Malaysian Airline’s one time only, limited edition, exclusive flight food offering-
the ‘Meteor Bread’! Also known as the ‘Rock’!

A special concoction of pure plain dough shaped as a square brick block, with bits of ham thrown in for a dash of colour!

I looked over to the guy beside me and he looked back, we both threw that horrid thing back to its beautiful package and shut the lid. So much for lunch!

Touched down in Miri and found that our next flight had been delayed by an hour. Good! I thought, just enough time to search for a quick bite onto some good grub. Enticed by a delicious poster advertising for ‘Malaysian Wok’, we were in a mood for a little noodle soup…

Yet, Life decided that it was not at the end of its mischievous run.

Sometimes what you see is not only what you get…but MORE!

Guess what I found in my chicken ball noodle soup halfway after eating it?

A piece of STRING!!

Yep, a skinny white string masquerading as noodles was found floating in my soup as I fished it out with my fork. It’s the same type of string people use to tie exam scripts with during O’levels. Urrgh... I refuse to speculate on what went into the making of those chicken balls I ate!

And so that's the end of my adventures exploring the arid gastronomical wonders of MAS, not forgetting the 'delightful' surprise that awaited me at Malaysian Wok.
Thank God the rest of the food along the trip was normal and not quite as spectacular! haha...

Ulu Mulu: I Love You!

2008-03-04T01:33:00.004+08:00

For those of you who have been wondering what I've been up to, don't worry my blog's not dead.
I was just busy exploring limestone caves in Sarawak, Malaysia while on the pretense of doing geographical fieldwork. I'll just let the pictures speak for themselves and make every Human/Urban Geographer/ Non-Geographer jealous...haha!

miri-mulu flight

Meandering rivers in Borneo with an Ox-Bow lake clearly visible on the right.

Royal Mulu Resort

Taking measurements along the river flanked by limestone.

Royal Mulu Resort

Stopping for an ice lolly right after.

Bat Observatory

Watching millions of bats make their way out of Deer's cave for their daily hunt in the evening.

Entrance of Clearwater cave

Exploring the caves themselves with all the bat shit guano, collapsed dolines, speleothems and dripping water in utter darkness.

Park HQ eating area

Having a hearty breakfast with good friends every morning.

Sg Pala bridge along main road

Admiring breathtaking landscapes where the mountains meet the clouds together.

miri airport

Taking a breather from the 5m high piles of stinking guano in Deer's Cave. ahha.

Finally when the going gets tough, nothing beats wasting time more than taking stupid photos as we while time away waiting for others. heeheehee!

my tshirt for the day

Ahh.........!

Things that amaze me about Germany...

2008-01-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

Near the Reichstag

1. How do they wash their hands with the soap and paper towel dispenser provided with not a single tap of water to be seen anywhere nearby??

I suppose the wash basin could be inside the cubicles but I didn't see any water pipes or tubes connected to them at all.

Bebelplatz

2. The irony of having the Nazis burning 20,000 books right outside the Humboldt University, from which 29 Nobel prize winners came from.

I must admit, the geek in me was alerted and gave a little leap in response when I saw the list of names that were part of the university's alumni. The list includes:
Alexander von Humboldt- natural scientist and Geographer!
Georg Hegel-Philosopher
Heinrich Heine- Poet
Otto von Bismarck-First one to unify all the German states
Albert Einstein- Jewish German who taught physics there. He later fled the country during the Nazi occupation to the U.S, where he came up with the equation to build the atomic bomb that ended WW2. Strong sense of 'Karma' operating there.
The Grimm brothers- Without whom we would never have amazing bedtime stories and get introduced to Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Rapunzel, Red Riding Hood, Hansel and Gretel etc...
Karl Marx and Freidrich Engels- The ones who give many students (including my whole Honours class) a mighty headache and incur frequent curses as we all struggle to comprehend the idea of Structuralism/Marxism/Socialism. (*%#$@!!)

Outside a shopping centre, Berlin

3. How silent it is when snow falls.

It may not be obvious but I took the above picture when it was snowing heavily on New Year's Day in Berlin. Up til now I still feel quite amazed at how silent snow is compared to rain. Somehow, falling snow blankets away all the sounds of the city and manages to make everything seem so quiet and peaceful. (My friend says it's an eerie silence but I beg to differ.)

Old Bridge, Heidelberg

4. No matter how important the person the statue is of, be it a Greek God, a Hero or a Prime Minister, there will always be a bird who will perch itself comfortably on top of the head and shit on it.

Simply put it, Shit happens to anyone regardless of status, age, gender or class. haha.

Outside a Butcher's shop, Munich

5. How incredibly obedient and well-trained German dogs are.

I have seen dogs on the train, on the bus, even in the middle of a shopping mall! They will just sit quietly by their owners' side without barking or moving an inch. The huge Retriever I saw in the shopping mall was just lying alone in the middle of the walkway while its owner went off browsing for shoes. It didn't move its position at all but just laid there peacefully as hordes of shoppers manoeuvred around it. It was only when the owner came back, tap his leg once, when it lifted its giant body up with a jerk and started to follow him out of the store.
The Terrier above was waiting patiently outside the butcher's store while its owner was happily purchasing sausages inside. I'm really surprised that it did not leap and start pawing the mountains of meat and sausages hanging seductively around the store!

Plaque citing the fall of the Berlin Wall.

6. How a country like Germany can become one of the strongest European economies when it's capital was still economically/socially/ philosophically/physically divided less than 20 years ago.

Jewish Museum, Berlin

7. Last but not least, how is it that there can still be a thriving, growing and prospering Jewish community in a country that strove to eliminate and succeeded in 6million Jewish deaths less than 50 years ago??!!

The only explanation I can give is that it is because they are God's people. God has really let them keep the flame burning despite all the odds. For an idea of how well the Jews in Germany are doing, I would add that they now have a new synagogue in Berlin with its dome capped in Gold and the Jewish Museum is the only museum to have Apple ipods for its visitors to listen to the commentary. To me, it just screams "$RiCH!!!$"

Back Home again...

2008-01-16T19:37:00.000+08:00

Hey people, yes I am finally back in Singapore after a whirlwind kind of tour to...in case you don't know it yet... GERMANY! Yep, I went to the kingdom of Bavaria, the proud republic of Deutschland and the place that gave birth both Nobel prize winners and cruel dictators.

I hope you are not thinking, "She's damn bloody rich and lucky lah, always flying off to some faraway place!" Because no, I am not rich and over-flowing with money. I do not take tours but rely on budget transport and travel. We plan all our own iteinary. It's a very 'backpacker' independent kind of travelling. Except that we do not carry backpacks but strain our arms lugging our suitcase luggages up and down buses, trams, trains as we go from city to city. Few people know about the many-a-cup noodles I have eaten as a substitute for a meal overseas, and I mean ALOT of instant mee. (The supermarket cashier always gives me a weird "are u planning on running away as a refugee?" look when I make my pre-travel purchases haha) Even fewer will understand the weirder looks we get when we unpack our own lunch of Japanese Curry Rice to eat in the middle of the park, musuem foyer, shopping centre bench or out in the open in the middle of winter. We do not even stay at hotels coz they are usually quite expensive. What we have are mostly apartments, hostels and B&Bs. (which translates to we cook, we clean and we share toilet facilities with others)

But despite all that, I really do feel extremely lucky to have been to and seen the places, met the faces and gone through the experiences that I have. Thank God for His kindness! :)
I wouldn't trade it all for the world, though I have seen it. Haha.
I used to worry abit about writing all about my travels coz I don't want to end up sounding boastful and gain the envy of others, but then again now I'm thinking: Heck it lah!
I should try to put it all down before it all turns into a faded memory. Besides, someone once told me I should actually put in more photos of my travels so that people who can't afford to travel can at least get a glimpse of what's out there. So I shall try to do just that.

1st photo of the day: The Reichstag in Berlin, Germany on New Year's eve.

Notice the long queue lining the front of the entrance to get to the dome crowning the German Parliament. Think it must have been as long as the line outside the Donut shop at cityhall during its peak or maybe longer. And it certainly would have taken just as long (most probably 2-3hrs) to get in. We were originally in the queue but the plan was aborted when the British group behind us brought us to our senses when they said:"Blimey! We are wasting our time freezing in the cold when we can spend it better at other warmer places. Let's get out of here and away from these idiots!"

Okie that's about all that I'm writing so far. Shall update more when I have the time. It's one of the rare times when I'm starting to type more than the pictures I post.
Til' Then!!

I'm Like a Bird...

2007-12-26T14:55:00.000+08:00

Hey there, people who know me and are reading this, wondering where I am since I'm not answering your sms or phonecalls. (I doubt there will be many anyway)

The reason being that I'm off to some far-flung part of the globe again. This time on a last minute 2-week holiday trip to maximise my last remaining chances of using cheap SIA ticket prices. (Before fuel prices sky-rocket to unattainable heights and I officially become a full-paying 'adult')

By the way, I'll be back on 13 Jan, just before my last semester of school starts again, if anyone is actually interested to know.

As for where i am going, I'll leave it to the people whom I have told to know and for the rest to find out. Haha...why don't you make an intelligent guess?
(hint: it's on another continent and hemisphere)

In the words of Nelly Furtado: "I'm like a bird...I always fly away..."

Til' I see you all again!

You Know Who You Are...

2007-12-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

Rainy Days and Mondays

2007-12-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

The exams are finally over and the holidays are here once more.
But somehow I'm still cooped behind the grills of my house.
For the past few days it has been raining like God-decided-to-try-and-turn-Earth-into-Neptune-on-a-whim.
Alternatively, we can just conveniently blame the anthropogenic-induced global climate change for this perpetual wet socks weather. Sighz...
Bad weather no sun, no money no fun.

Anyway, I was just mulling over the rainy weather late this evening when i was greeted with a sight that just made me laugh...

My mother never fails to surprise me and today she did it again with
this HuuUuuuGE Umbrella!!!!

ps: my own blue umbrella looks like a tiny dwarf next to her monstrous waterproof canvas, which I think, can easily pass off as a makeshift shelter for the homeless! I wonder how many stares she invited when she took it out to work today. (I'm guessing either envious or weird kinds. haha.)

How nice it is to have a big warm shelter you can always run to in stormy weather... And never fear of getting wet too!

Reeling from a nightmare

2007-11-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

I feel like a caged bird...been cooped up at home for the past whole week trying my best to read, study, synthesize and summarise. Containment is an ironic word for what I'm in. I feel repressed within the four walls of my home, yet I struggle to keep whatever my eyes have seen inside my head. Just when I thought I was quite ready to fly out and confront the dreaded,
I got shot.

First paper. First glance and I knew I was dead. First time i felt so paralysed from a stupid paper. 3 questions and I couldn't give a complete answer for any.

If I could turn back the hands of time, I wouldn't even bother.

Time to grab the most important book for revision to help me face the rest of the desolation.

The First Love Story...

2007-11-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

Bell X1- Eve, The Apple of My Eye

You left it, I sent it
I want it back
You left it, I sent it
I want it back

If I had you here, I'd clip your wings
Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin
This plan of mine is oh so very lame
Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

You left, I died,
I went and you cried
You came, I think
But I never really know
I've served my time
I've watched you climb
The wrong incline
But what do I know

Accept it, Don't let it
Turn the screw
Accept it, And let it
Scream back at you

Now this applies both equally to you and I
The only thing we share
Is the same sky
These empty metaphors
They're all in vain
Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

In the garden Snake was a charmin'
And Eve said let's give it a try
Now lead us not into temptation
But no matter how hard I try
When in the garden and
Snake is a charmin'
And Eve says let's give it a try
Eve is the apple of my eye

Eve is the apple of my eye

And I lie behind you
And a cradle you in the palm of me
And I pat your hair down
I think will we sink or swim?
'Cause we could do either on a whim

This song is currently no.1 on my playlist. Love the lyrics man.
Parts of it sound more like a poem rather than a song.

"The grass is always greener where it rains"
I suppose we now all know where the expression "apple of my eye" comes from too.

Apparently, Damien Rice was with this band before he went solo. Go figure. He's one of my favourite poet/singers, one of the only ones who can wax lyrical about depression and make explicit words sound poetic. Haha!

Anyway, my interpretation of the song is that it comes from the viewpoint of Adam.
He loved Eve so much that he was willing to give anything a try, even if it meant doing something wrong. Ahh...The things people do for love, sometimes it just breaks my heart...oh well it's just me being melancholy...haa...

What about you? What do you think?

PS: I've been stuck at home with my books and notes, supposed to be studying but with not much luck. Youtube will cause the death of me.

Different Lens...

2007-10-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

Been thinking about this issue for these past few days, haven't exactly been able to put it in words or pictures. Until something written in a friend's blog spelt out what I have been wanting to say all along. So I shall start off with a story from her,

"I went to the optician a few days back to order a pair of spectacles, i told her i really cannot stand being short-sighted by 100 degrees for both eyes. I wanted perfect eyesight. Then she advised that i can still see quite well, except for things at a distance. Thus wearing spectacles is only for when there is a need.

Something that struck me deeply was what she said, that because i know the difference between looking at things with perfect eyesight versus short-sightedness, therefore i cannot stand it.
She told me many people at 100 degrees short-sightedness do not actually realise that they are short-sighted, because the unclearness is so mild, they think they have perfect eyesight and are comfortable with that.

Isn't this what is happening in life each day? Each person has their own view of what is a perfect vision. Someone's perfect clear vision might be 50 degrees short-sightedness, or 150 degrees short-sightedness, whatever the person is comfortable and decided to live with.

In terms of how each person perceives things, the logic is the same. Each person has their own thinking of what is correct and perfect, and base their perceptions on that.

Therefore, don't assume people will see things as you do. Even the most basic instinct of what is clear vision differs greatly for each individual, even more so perceptions."

Sometimes in life, arguments can seem endless with no conclusion in sight.
But perhaps if we take a step back and try to think things through,

We'll be able to keep things in perspective,
and to look from other people's point of view,
even if we may not agree with them.

Maybe the world will be a better place if we could all just leave our bones of contention out on the open table and try to resolve it in a calm peaceful manner.

But then again, I'm idealistic.

It Ends Tonight

2007-10-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

Note to Self

2007-10-19T17:28:00.000+08:00

2007-10-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

Luke 6:41-42

Stray Off Track...

2007-10-16T12:01:00.000+08:00

The sign on the floor said
"Stay on Track"
But nobody told me honours
will be this whack

I tried to balance,
to keep my eyes forward
tried to walk straight
and just accept my fate

Somehow in the middle
I started to dwiddle
Went from reading to you-tubing
Instead of perserving
I end up straying

And so I stumble
with all my work in a jumble
Nevermind that the people around me
Seem to have it so easy

It's driving me Mad
All these load of Crap
Everything going down with a big fat
Splat!

Clarissa is not having the best of times...
need to find the strength to fight the battles within and without...

Watch Out !!

2007-09-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

Deadlines in the mirror are Closer than they appear to be.

Inane and Useless facts about Clarissa that you may or may not have known

2007-09-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

I believe that the friends you have are a reflection of your own self. True friends reveal yourself to you like a mirror does. (Or according to HJJ, true friends are the ones who are able to call you names like "bastard!" or "miser!" without you feeling insulted)
I have a soft spot for the British accent. Hearing the ups and downs of tone, the minding of 'P's & 'Q's, the extra emphasis on consonants...all just makes my ears tingle and more eager to listen. The fact that half of my lecturers come from the UK makes a neat coincidence to half my reasons for majoring in Geography. (I can't imagine listening to the endless drones of the flat American drawl from the Sociology Dept or the incomprehensible is-that-even-English-they-are-speaking(?!) Economics/Computing lectures conducted by those from our largest Asian neighbours, India and China!)
I don't like chocolate! I find that I get overdosed if I eat more than a few bites of that dark gooey thing. Friends who have been to my house can attest to that as they would have seen the amounts of truffles and boxes of abandoned chocolate pieces hidden in the corners of my fridge. The last thing you'll see me eating is anything remotely like a chocolate cake, brownies or worse, triple-choc-fudge-with-extra-choc-chips ice cream! Urrghh...
I can't go for more than 24 hours without sleep. Therefore, it means that I have never managed to "tong" the whole night at camps or stayovers. I usually only manage to stay until 3-4am before my eyes give way to gravity.
I am more likely to buy something that I don't need from a hardware/$1.99 store than a clothing/accessories shop. I somehow get more tempted to buy table lamps, metal hooks and bottle jars than I do for necklaces, handbags and tops.
More on the topic of shops, my favourite places to shop are supermarkets and bookstores! I can spend hours looking through different cans of food and comparing prices, or while a whole afternoon away just browsing through rows of books without buying them. (Guess you can officially call me a weirdo-housewife-in-making-bookworm now)
I have an inclination to go irritate people whom I dislike on purpose. I know this is bad, but somehow I take a perverse joy in bursting the self-absorbed ego-bubble of others then running away gleefully. Hahaha!

Dog-Tired......

2007-08-29T20:43:00.000+08:00

School has started for not more than 3 weeks,
all i can say is that it is draining every last bit of energy in me!
Feeling dog-tired, I'm officially a vegetable brain every Monday evening at 5pm while the rest of the time I resume my usual role of roaming-campus-corpse ...
And this is just the tip of the iceberg, the given readings are just the beginning of this huge abyss of knowledge we are suppose to comprehend called "Geographical Thought". (Well, i just thought it sucks!)

Anyway, the real sinking of the Titantic (a.k.a my mental health) will most likely be occurring in the month of October when there's practically a deadline every few days. So be warned if I seem maniacal during that period! (Ps: I'll probably be a permanent 'Miss Hyde' then and only transform back to Jekyll after November)

On a more lighter and heartburning note, for those of you who always wonder what I have been up to in my life, (since I don't take to rambling endlessly about what I do everyday or how many people have annoyed me in the past 24hrs) Well, the month of August has been a month of birthday feasting and gorging on delicious grub for me. Thanks to all those who have graciously accompanied me on my way to discovering delicious food and also a straight ticket to Obesity-land. Haha!

For those who have missed out on riding the lipid train with me, here's a look on what you have saved yourselves from.....

Steak Sandwiches from Tuckshop.

Curry Udon and Hamburger Steak at Ma Maison.

Spicy Crab Linguine at Wild Rocket.

Feeling hungry yet?

Heart. Broken?

2007-07-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

If your heart is broken, sweep up the pieces.
There will always be someone who will want to put it back together.

Now............
The question is,

Will you let them?

For the friend who is hurting...

2007-07-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

And the song is for you too...

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Joseph Arthur- In the Sun

I picture you in the sun wondering, what went wrong

And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy

And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen

And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God's love be with you. Always.

May God's love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes

cause when you showed me myself, I became someone else

But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need

I picture you fast asleep

A nightmare comes

You can't keep awake

May God's love be with you. Always.

May God's love be with you

cause if I find, If I find my own way

How much will I find?

If I find, If I find my own way

How much will I find You?

I dont know anymore

What its for, Im not even sure

If there is anyone who is in the sun

Will you help me to understand

cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need

Maybe you're not even sure what its for

Any more than me

May God's love be with you. Always

May God's love be with you

You will find your Way, don't worry. I believe in you.

Empty Inside... Scroll down for the key...

2007-07-16T11:14:00.000+08:00

Those people around me would know that i have recently discovered this really cool book called Kokology: the game of self- discovery. They ask you a series of seemingly innocent topics then reveal what the answers say about you. I have tested it on quite a few people to quite hilarious, but usually spot-on results. Haha. And so I decided to put in one of the questions and see what you choose. (Don't worry, it wouldn't be anything too personal like who your secret crush is!)
Ready? Here goes...

Empty Inside

Some days everything just seems to go your way. Traffic seems to clear a path for you on the way to work; your boss takes the day off; you win the office pool. And you're all the happier because each new bit of luck comes as a pleasant surprise. Of course, there's another side to the unexpected as well. All it takes is a run in your stocking or a stain on your favourite shirt to bring you right back to reality. Good or bad, it's the little surprises that keep life interesting.

You go to the local bakery and buy a jelly doughnut. (you know, the kind without the hole but with jam stuffing inside) However, when you get home and take a bite, you discover it's missing one essential ingredient--the jelly inside! How do you react to this bit of bad luck?

1. Take the defective doughnut back to the shop and get a new one.

2. Say to yourself, "These things happen," and eat the empty doughnut as it is.

3. Eat something else.

4. Try filling the empty doughnut with something like maple syrup or jam to make it taste better.

Sooooooo...what have you chosen? Do drop me your answer in the comments page and I'll reveal the key to this topic soon. Btw, my first reaction was "Arrrrrggghhh", I'll try to eat it plain first but then decide not to torture my tastebuds anymore and fill it up with my own jam. So my answer is most likely to be choice no.4

Key to Empty Inside

What do you call a jelly doughnut without any jelly in it? A: a nasty surprise!

While we are on the subject of the unexpected, you may be surprised to hear that the response you chose for the above scenario shows the role you play among your friends.

Choice no. 1

An orthodox thinker who isn't easily thrown off guard by odd occurrences, you can be relied on not to panic when the unexpected happens. But you aren't the type to take command and lead the way. Rather, you tend to support leader types with your clear judgement and coolheaded advice.

Choice no. 2

You don't let surprises ruffle your feathers, accepting whatever hand the fates deal you. Your patience and flexibility make you incredibly easy to get along with, and it could be said that you're the glue that holds your circle of friends together. Because you don't make a fuss over things, it sometimes seems that you fade into the background. But like air, you go unnoticed only until you are not around.

Choice no. 3

Quick to make decisions and quick to act, you're a natural leader in any group. You come into your own when things get out of hand and the situation calls for one person to take charge and decide a course of action. You don't hem and haw over where to go for dinner or what movie to see--the word indecision is not in your vocabulary. That air of confidence and authority means that when you speak, the people around you listen.

Choice no. 4

Your talent for coming up with innovative solutions makes you the undisputed idea generator in your clique. Everyone has common sense, but you have a knack for uncommon sense that lets you see opportunities where others see only problems. Your creative instincts mean that you run the risk of getting carried away with yourself and seem eccentric from time to time, but people feel safe knowing that whatever happens, you are sure to keep things interesting.

Happy Anniversary!

2007-07-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

It has been,

six flips of the calender page,

six cycles of the moon,

six phone bills indicating I exceeded my limit,(haha)

Six months and counting....

Thanks for everything, you know who you are :)

Damian Rice & Lisa Hannigan -- 9 Crimes

2007-07-10T03:28:00.000+08:00

3am and i'm still wide awake, decided to surf youtube for music videos and chanced upon this. I've always loved damian rice since "cannonball" and now, this song is the one that's on the top of my playlist... He makes such heartbreaking songs that are perfect for a still, quiet, dark night.

What I have been up to...

2007-06-21T13:47:00.000+08:00

Okay i'm back from Spain and alot of people have been asking me what is there to see and do over there, my answer is buildings, buildings and more buildings!
Whatever can be built, be it sculptures or houses or public parks, you can trust the Spanish to have it made in the funkiest way.
Known as the Modernismo movement, it is where artists and architects just abandon all sense of the common and go wild and abstract with their creations.
Which explains why the building above has a funky orange-coloured tile roof and looks like a castle...
And there is more...

Rooftop on one of Barcelona's beloved architect Antoni Gaudi's buildings called "La Pederra"....
I thought it was quite cool.

A hospital that's classified as a UNESCO World Heritage Site for architecture. I wouldn't mind staying in such a good looking place when i'm sick if you ask me, as long as the insides are not as old as the outsides haha...

Another random Modernismo building

Hansel and Gretel-inspired Gingerbread House by Gaudi in Park Guell (pronounced as Park 'Weaaayyy', like your mouth is twisted to one side)

And then there's all the sculptures we saw...the one above is called
Joan Miro: "Caress of a Bird"

Joan Miro: "Woman and Bird"

All of which inspired us to come up with an abstract piece of "art" sculpture ourselves,

self-titled...

"Two Idiots Staring at Eggs on Chairs!"

And last but not least, for old time's and just plain boliao's sake...

Nothing says it better that you are in a foreign country where English is not the usual medium of speech better than seeing the item, "Coocked from Madrid" that costs 15euros (S$30!) from a menu outside a cafe!

a liminal space, a familiar place ...

2007-05-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

Taking off to the land of matadors and bullfights.

Be back on 11 June. Don't miss me! haha...

Choices...

2007-05-21T14:27:00.000+08:00

Recent events to the people around me has got me thinking about the decisions we have to make in life. When we come to the crossroads, which path should we take? In times like this, do we take the broad and attractive lane we know will lead us to nowhere? Or do we have the courage to embark on the narrow and crooked path out of the mess, even if it means we have to do it alone ?
If we cannot decide, should we just give up and turn back to the path we came from in the first place? For comfort and familiarity's sake, eventhough we know it's a pithole with no hope of a future?

What do we do?
Life is, after all, all about choices isn't it?

We make the choices, then our choices make us.

Make the right choice, and our choice will make our lives alright.

2007-05-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

Okie my exams are finally over, i am now free to meet up with anyone and everyone.

Everybody say Yaay together......

Yeeeeaaaayeeeee........!!

One more time just for the sake of it,
Say yaay again!

YAAAaaaaay.....!!

DREAD...

2007-05-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Never felt so much dread and repulsion for an exam before.

The notes are in front, the eyes are looking but Mr Brain has long gone on an indefinite vacation.

You know they say that the worse feeling is not the actual event, its in the anticipation of it,

the dread of knowing how bad it's going to be.

But yet, having to wait for it to come while watching the minutes crawl by like hours.

Arrgghh....just spare the blindfold and get on with it!

When will the agony end?

Toilet Humor

2007-04-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

In between my exams now, just had a paper today that I think just went flushed down the toilet. But not just any other toilet, its the super duper automated high-tech toilet seat that I came across in Japan!

They keep the toilet seat warmed up for you in winter through some heater that runs through the toilet bowl.

And different buttons at the side lets you do so many things you never thought of doing in a cubicle.

One button gives you a butt spray and another plays the music of a flushing sound.

Haha! Isn't it a toilet bliss?

But the funniest thing was I read in the papers that the company producing those 'special' toilet bowls, TOYO, is now facing lawsuits after one of the bowls caught fire while someone was on it! Hohoho... i sure pity that poor girl man...

Okie enough crapping, (pun not intended)

Back to my lonely cubicle to be with stacks of paper and analyse loads of shit ...

(i mean studying by the way)

Sitting Duck...

2007-03-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

Three presentations, three modules, all having the dreaded segment of "Q&A discussion".

I am just a sitting duck waiting to be shot down!

Recent quotes that caught my eye...

2007-03-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

"All tyranny needs to gain a foothold is for people of good
conscience to remain silent"
-- Thomas Jefferson

"A tyrant's best ally has always been an apathetic populace.
Citizens of Germany learned that awful truth in 1939."
-- Doug Thompson

"Rebellion to tyrants is obedience to God."
-- Thomas Jefferson

I refuse to let the sun go down on me......

2007-02-14T00:13:00.001+08:00

Fishleong's Ongoing Repeating
Melody Results in a Head Jam Jialat!

暖暖

都可以随便的
你说的我都愿意去
小火车摆动的旋律
都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你

细腻的喜欢
毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳熟悉的安全感

分享热汤圆
我们两支汤匙一个碗
左心房暖暖的好饱满

我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
真心的对我好
不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要

都可以随便的
你说的我都愿意去
回忆里满足的旋律
都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你

细腻的喜欢
你手掌的厚实感
什么困难都觉得有希望
我哼着歌
你自然的就接下一段
我知道暖暖就在胸膛

我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
真心的对我好
不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要

我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
从来都很低调
自信心不高
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要
我也希望变更好

I've finally found what I have been waiting for :)

Thought of the Day...

2007-02-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

Things start to appear only after you have stopped searching for them.

The things people build.....

2007-02-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

I only recently got into reading the comic "Calvin and Hobbes" (Hobbes pronounced as 'hor-orbs', not ho-bei !!)
And I realised that the comic actually makes quite a few statements about life and people through the use of simple analogy. Haha, don't know if its because i'm reading too much into it but I found it really interesting!
I get the most insightful comprehensions of life through comics man!
Here is an example of one of them:

In life, people often build high walls and strong barriers around themselves emotionally, thinking that by doing so, they can protect themselves and avoid getting hurt by others.
But in the end, their walls get so massive until they find themselves trapped within,
all alone and in need of help afterall.

Sometimes when you least expect it...

2007-01-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when you least expect it, God springs you a pretty surprise. :)

Saw this on my floor when the early morning sun rays got refracted through my window panes.
Isn't it pretty?

Today is the First Day of the Rest of My Semester...

2007-01-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

First Day of School, New Beginning.
Wonder what, the semester will bring
Got up Bright, but not so early
Felt like going, back to bed comfy
Any way, what I wanted to say
Was that I'm hoping
For the few months coming
That I will be able
To get more 'A's !!!

The only thing that's constant in this world is CHANGE......

2007-01-03T20:06:00.000+08:00

In this new year, it got me thinking and looking back,
I realised that.....

Cities can grow from olden to modern, within Decades...

We get older and hopefully wiser, within Years...

Seasons change, people change, within Months...

The weather can shift from Sunny...

to Stormy, within a Day!

(ps: I did not change it to black and white mode for the pic above)

But then, throughout all the change, the ups and downs, breakups and makeups, happy and sad,
it's always comforting to know that there is Something that is always constant, always the same,
yesterday, today and forever.
Something not of this world, but has overcome it.
Something we can always rely on because it never changes and is steadfast throughout everything.

Yep, in this new year of 2007, I shall take this Something as my instruction manual for life in the next 365 days and beyond, since I know it can never go wrong and will never be wrong.

What is this Something you may ask?

...........................................

Christmas is the time....

2006-12-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

Admist the lights, the noise, the partying, the merry-making,

the gift wrapping, cards and the presents,

Have you heard the most important message of the season yet?

Bacon-wrapped Enoki mushroom!

2006-12-22T11:26:00.000+08:00

It's the holidays again, I had some free time at home so decided to experiment and try out something new that I ate at a restaurant. Woah! It turned out to be pretty good though it's super fattening and sinful! haha...

But then it's extremely simple, just wrap a long slice of streaky bacon around a bundle of enoki/shitake mushroom or baby asparagus (which is what i'm gona try next!), stick a toothpick through to hold it together,then you either just proceed to dump it into the toaster oven for a few minutes 'til it gets crispy or be more chef-y like me and grill it on an non-stick frying pan, no need oil, coz the bacon produces it or unless you want your face to be oozing out oil like a palm tree. Haa.

Anyway, after 10 minutes or so, viola!
You should have a sinful but delicious snack ready for you and your stomach!
Best for munching in front of the television.
Happy tasting!

For my friend living abroad who wouldn't be able to see this year's Christmas lightup...

2006-12-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

Takashimaya Lamp post

One of Four fountains that was put up at the road junction. This one's red, the others are white, gold and green.

The colour theme for this year is gold again. In my opinion, it still can't beat the silvery winter theme they had a few years back.
The most magical one being,
Nov 2001, after the last O'level paper: Silvery windpipes hanging on trees in different lengths that reflect all the colours of the rainbow when light gets into them.
It was good times. Or maybe it was the people I was around with at that time,
my best friends from Cedar=)

Looking for Answers......

2006-11-29T16:20:00.000+08:00

Look what I found in the library!
Now if only every school had one of this for its students then we wouldn't have to worry so much about exams and stuff......
Unfortunately like in real life,
the answers are never clear, always blur
and not as thick and complicated as one would expect!

You Know You Have Gained Weight When....

2006-11-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

1) You realised that the only part of the body exercised is your mouth and that you have developed strong cheek muscles from stuffing your face too much.

2) A barricade of "no entry" has been set up so that food doesn't travel like an escalator straight up to your gaping cookie-monster-fied mouth.

3) Your parents consider making a similar sign as above but with your face on it instead.

4) Your tummy gets in the way everytime you open and close the fridge door after raiding it.

5) You have trouble cutting your toenails.

And last but not least,

6) A certain guy named Ronald has recently become your best friend!

Writing assignments........

2006-10-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

Add that to the fact that we usually rely on writers we don't know to describe research we don't fully understand, performed by people who often have the financial incentives to mislead the population. Then you will have an idea of how screwed up this whole writing process is.

Bottomline: Sorry lah, but I still hate Writing essays! ARGH......

This is Dedicated to KATHRYN... haha!

2006-10-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

WOMAN'S PERFECT BREAKFAST
She's sitting at the table with her gourmet coffee. Her son is on the cover of the Wheaties box.Her daughter is on the cover of Business Week. Her boyfriend is on the cover of Playgirl. And her husband is on the back of the milk carton.

WOMEN'S REVENGE
"Cash, check or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet , I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse."So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked."No," she replied, "but my husband refused to come shopping with me, and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally."

WIFE VS. HUSBAND
A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument and neither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?" "Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws."

WORDS
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day.... 30,000 to a man's 15,000. The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men... The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

And this is for the guys who feel marginalised from reading the top part,

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN (A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE)
I know I'm not going to understand women. I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax, pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and still be afraid of a spider.

CIGARETTES AND TAMPONS
A man walks into a pharmacy and wanders up & down the aisles. The sales girl notices him and asks him if she can help him. He answers that he is looking for a box of tampons for his wife. She directs him down the correct aisle. A few minutes later, he deposits a huge bag of cotton balls and a ball of string on the counter.She says, confused, "Sir, I thought you were looking for some tampons for your wife?He answers, "You see, it's like this, yesterday, I sent my wife to the store to get me a carton of cigarettes, and she came back with a tin of tobacco and some rolling papers; cause it's sooo-ooo--oo-ooo much cheaper. So, I figure if I have to roll my own .......... so does she. (I figure this guy is the one on the milk carton!)

What the signs are ReALLy saying......

2006-09-28T14:35:00.000+08:00

Don't make promises that you can't keep,
or else lightning may strike you!
天打雷劈！！

Don't be taken in by the appearance of things (even if they look good enough to eat!),
you may get hooked unto addictions without even realising it

You may think it is a parking space for the disabled,
but it really is for people with Big Fat Butts!

Cartoon of the Day....

2006-09-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

I wonder who would win if they started fighting.

Anger Management...

2006-08-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

In light of certain events, I got to thinking about anger and forgiveness. When a person has angered you or hurt you or betrayed you in some way or another, what do you do about it?
Some people blow up and never talk to the other person ever again, some people hold the anger inside for a long long time, never being able to forgive and let go, some people use hate as a way for their anger and yet others find themselves never being able to trust again.

Regardless, there are also some people who just constantly irritate the hell out of you with their nonsense and here are some thoughts that might help haha...

In the words of one of my friends,

"Some people are alive simply because it's illegal to shoot them!"

From the movie "Anger Management",

Temper's the one thing you can't get rid of, by losing it.

Finally, a lesson I just learned from the Oprah show,

"Being mad and not being able to forgive someone is like taking poison yourself while hoping that the other person dies."

Now...... if I can just resist the thought of being able to viciously pluck the silly little mustache off my smug i-know-it-all-coz-i-read-alot lecturer's face and then using it as fuel for burning all his precious thick chim books at one go whenever he goes rattling insults on all that I believe in....Then I will be fine.
Afterall, "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" man.. hahaha...

Goosebumps....

2006-08-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

Once in a while, you hear someone sing a song so real,so raw and so well that it gives you goosebumps and make the tiny hairs on your arm stand.

Ryan Star totally kicks the butt of ALL the Singapore Fei Chang Idol Super Star/Band/Kid contestants out of the window, straight into the sky to circle round the entire earth at least 3 times man!!

Oh, and multipy that ten times even more when you throw in a cute-as-teletubbies-but-sound equally-as-bad-as-them Joakim (not to mention downright freakingly disturbing that he's still not eliminated!)

Sighz. I just wish that I had cable so that I don't need to put up with the Kid's Central ditties (aka Singapore Idol aspirants' singing) and can finally watch and listen to real good performances at proper singing competitions with fair eliminations.

Someone Please Sponsor meeeee with the CBS channel!

Ryan Star- Losing My Religon

BirthDay...

2006-08-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

Woke up early that morning
To find the sky a deep grey blue
It looked liked it was going to rain,
And I dreaded going to school.

It was a day like no other,
a birthday was its name
So why did God had to go make it pour,
and make it such a bother?

And so I sulked, and I pout,
as i moved my butt about.
Somewhere a little voice whispered,
"Count your blessings, not your grouse"
But I ignored it and left the house.

At school I was late
which meant I had to wait,
til the class had a break.

As I sat at the bench,
I began to ponder
about all my friends.

"Do they care?"

"Do they even know I'm there?"

And a tiny voice answered,
"Of coz they do! You always knew!
Feel the love with your heart. It's more than meets the eye."

I decided to give it a try.

Just as I started to open my heart's gate,
Out pops my friend in red.
All smiles and bouncing cheery
With a book to make me happy!

The next friend I greet,
Offered a bag for me to keep.
Cookies baked with love and care,
more than enough to fill a bear!

I was convinced by my inner voice,

and I knew I had a choice.

Good or bad this day might be,

It was all up to me!

It didn't just stop there,
As I became more aware.
Alas! Something more was BreWing
I was led, unassuming

"Surprise! Surprise!
They all yelled.

Love overflowing was what I felt.

Joy on my right,
Friends on my left.
Laughter in front,
Pardon the pun

Surrounded by the people
Who have known me
Eversince the beginning
Of my journey...

It was then I realised,
That in all my twenty-one years,
My friends are the ones who light up the pages,
In the Story Of My Life.

I may not have found the "special" someone to take care of me yet,

but I know I can count on these people to be there for me and look after me.

These friends are God's "special" way of taking care of me afterall. =)

Thank you all for being part of this birthday!

I Love You All !!!

Brick Walls...

2006-08-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

Arrgggh..been feeling like I keep banging into brick walls everytime I wanna blog. No interesting photos and no ideas/captions coming out either. Sorry about that folks!
(If you are in dying need to see some form of visual stimulation, please scroll all the way down further and click on my flickr badge on the right side, I put up some greece photos.)

Anyway, since my thinking cap has'nt been working much I guess it's time to bring out my walking shoes (okie fine, slippers!) for a walk in the sun instead!
Okie I'm going off now, wish me luck in the creative department yeah!

Time to get started...

2006-08-03T16:21:00.000+08:00

Now that the awful make-you-sweatlikeapig-before-you-even-leave-the-bed Singapore weather seems to have pass over, I guess it's no more excuse for me not to go out and exercise abit, it's been ages! Oh and also the lack of outdoors has been taking its toll on my right brain, hence the lack of much entries here due to the demise of my creativity. Haha okay enough crap.

Bye bye Prickly Heat! Time to move my Feet!

The Long Awaited Answer....

2006-07-24T14:31:00.000+08:00

Yes my friends, the answer is none other than SLURPEE because the machine keeps churning the ice drink, therefore it is always in "motion" (geddit?)

Peach got the right answer in my comment page but that's because i told her the answer already. So technically she cheated haha!

And the actual winner should be Joy coz she got the closest by mentioning that it was an ice-blend drink.
So Congrats Joy!! You win a free Slurpee from me! (but if you don't remind me it gets forfeited! Haaa....)

ps: Janice, how in the world does crysanthemum tea resemble motion, I don't get the link?!!!

Let's play the guessing game....

2006-07-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

Saw this on the menu at the museum cafe in Greece, gave me a shock and I immediately thought of the liquid usually found in a porcelein bowl.....but it's not!

Can you guess what the actual beverage was?

(*hint: it's something commonly found in Singapore too!)

Biblical Signs!

2006-07-03T17:40:00.000+08:00

In this age and time, everybody is looking for a sign, a phenomenon or just a clue as to how to live this life and how to go about living in this world. Well, just take a closer careful look and the answer, my friend, is not written in the wind but in the Bible, and basically littered among all the daily things we see. Have a look!

"If we confess our sins,

He is faithful and just

and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."

1 John 1:9

"So, if you think you are standing firm,

be careful that you don't fall! "

1 Corinthians 10:12

"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything,

to stand.

Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God."

Ephesians 6:13-17

(And may I add, earmuffs to snuff out things that are not worth listening to ie.malicious gossip, words people use to put you down...etc

Shades for the eyes, so that you don't see the bad side of people so often.

And gloves, so that you don't anyhow touch things, just for hygenic purposes haha!)

Battle of the sexes...

2006-07-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

While in Greece, my brother and I took turns at being models for each other's camera.

Just for the sake of fun, which one do you think is better?

(i don't have an actual voting poll but my comment page is free for you all!)

<-- This is a pic I took of my brother at the tip of the Aegean Sea.

"Quiet Contemplation"

And this is the one he took of me at the same place-->

"Victorious Jubilation"
(okay very lame titles I know..haha)

I'm Back From the Land who gave us Hercules and Feta Cheese!

2006-06-26T19:44:00.000+08:00

As some of you may know, the huge time gap between my last entry and this is due to my computer's irrational decision to break down, my laziness at getting it fixed and also my absence from Singapore as I took my annual vacation to the land of the Olympics, Greece.

Greece, also famous for the Aegean Sea and its white-washed-blue-domed-or-doored houses perched at its cliff shores.

It's the home of King Agemennon (the one who started the Trojan war lar) and his death mask, which is suppose to still have a bit of skin attached to it when they dug it out..eeks!

And also ancient Greek temples....

More temples of different shapes, styles and sizes... (Though i kinda pity those 6 female statues who have to support the roof with their heads! haha...)

And of coz, the icon and the thing that represents Athens, the capital city of Greece.
It's none other than the Parthenon!

Okay that's about all i can squeeze in here for now. I must make a point to say that all the photos were taken by me (heehee!) and not copied from some travel brochere yah..haha!

Hope it satisfies those reading this for the time being as I try to finish sorting through my other pictures, and hopefully be able to think out new funny accompanying lines to go with them. Taa!

Happy (early) Mother's Day!!

2006-05-11T19:04:00.000+08:00

Okie since I can't access the internet as and when I like it, I thought I better put in this one before it's too late. It's more examples of the messages the beloved-person-who-gave-birth-to-me-after-nine-long-months sends to me to show her concern. I really do love this petite-but-spunky(as what one of my friends called her) independent power woman who showers her care and love abundantly without hesitation, and may i add, it sometimes ends up as the funniest text messages that never fails to brighten my day.

So thank you Mummy and I love you! (if you haven't already know that)

(This was a reminder for me to put on the ear studs of my ear rings in case they came off without me knowing)

(the message by itself is already hilarious, my mother was worried that i may get my shoe soiled by accidentally stepping on the sticky sweet that melted on the steps, so she was so kind to cover it with a tissue. But the most funny twist to the story was that I WAS THE ONE who dropped that ricola sweet on the steps on my way out and was too lazy to pick it up, therefore letting it melt away til the next day when my mum saw it! HoHoHo!!)

Another one of her commands scribbled on paper for me, the first thing i see after i wake up.

And she really IS the 'highest' authority in my household, though me and my brother may not show it so often out of some rebellious streak that runs in us.

She holds the highest position in my heart as far as I am concerned.

Happy Mother's Day!!

Exams is like opening a TooL Box...

2006-05-11T15:50:00.000+08:00

First, you get hammered into having to spend copious amounts of time wallowing beneath the depths of thick thick texbooks and chim chim theories which drive you nuts and want to bolt for the door!

Not only does all the mugging pry you away from your social life, you also have to do a fair bit of prying your eyelids open with pliers yourself!

Sometimes it makes you wonder whether results are really a good gauge of your abilities since you really cannot determine the quality of your life with a measuring tape.

And then after all the hard work, studying and torture. The end of exam papers always almost somehow leaves me feeling ultimately, utterly and completely Screwed Up!!!

Yes, that's right, its the end of exams for me and the start of the jobless holidays. On a further annoying note, my com has been hit by the elusive spyfalcon virus (doesnt it sound like a thriller detective novel?) so the internet connection is totally impossible for at least the next few weeks for me. I have to resort to either taking advantage of my friend's com like now or travel long distance to school to use it..hmmmm..

Wallowing in mellow juices...

2006-04-30T03:30:00.000+08:00

Clarissa's current playlist

1) 终于明白- 动力火车

2) 一直很安静- 阿桑

3)爱笑的眼睛-徐若宣

4）简简单单-林俊杰

5）末日之恋- 张志诚

6）靠近- 庾澄庆

7）秋天别来-黄淑婷

8）叶子- 阿桑

9）莎士比亚的天份-林俊杰

After discovering the wonders of viewing MTVs on youtube from a friend, I got hooked into getting all those sad sad chinese songs about death and lost love. Damn!
I haven't felt this depressing heart-wrench about a drama theme song since the song 一个人生活 by 林凡 when i was watching some dubious ch 8 show called '天地传说之-鱼美人'.
Haha..okie as you can see I'm a period drama enthusiast. Now the latest one I'm watching is called Chinese Paladin or ‘仙剑奇侠传’for the less tacky name.

And below is one of the theme songs that is oh-so-depressing coz its a song about a third party love and a death sacrifice! arrghhh...i'm such a sucker for these songs.

阿桑- 一直很安静

Next up is this clip of our own local Singaporean, Lin Jun Jie, performing songs he wrote for other singers. He has so totally ruin the songs for me, coz now I can't accept the original singers after listening to his version. *Blehz*

2006-04-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm stuck at home with no motivation to study at all, so what do I do? Coooooook!

Don't be surprise if you can't recognise me after I come out of my hibernation shell looking different. (meaning the dreaded word all women fear come out of their boyfriends mouth:F**er)

ps: this is for justin who wanted food pictures.haha.

Hotdogs anyone?

(pity the poor dog who went sun-tanning too long and became my lunch!haha okie i'm lame!)

Maggi mee (Tung-yi brand) with lots of extra stuff

(i swear this time i didn't take a bite out of the egg! it just came out like that.)

Chilli prawn spaghetti

It's that time of the year again.....

2006-04-18T16:49:00.000+08:00

Yes folks, it's that time of the year again. The period that most undergrads in Singapore (NUS, NTU,SMU...regardless) dread for the fate that looms or has already descended upon them.

It's the period of EXAMS!!

When the everything gets gloomier and the sky seems a darker grey.

When you get imprisoned in your own home/room as you longingly gaze out to greener pastures of fun behind the bars of your window.

When you feel your brain overspills with too much information, just as your pencilcase gushes out all its contents as you dig it for highlighters, pens and whatsoever.

It's the time of the year when i feel all of that and stay at home all day, eating nothing but bread and butter for my meals. (who knew that even bread can make you fat!?!)

Yup, my friends I'll need to be alone with my readings, books and bread for this few days so don't expect too many updates here til then okay?

'til the next time....

AbbaCradaabra.....Spells Gone Wrong!

2006-04-11T10:51:00.000+08:00

Beef with special An-ions anybody? It's bound to give you a 'shock'...

Or chicken that is first fried then floored to give a better taste?

You make yourself available for the toilets at various locations?

And the ultimate when it comes to spelling, especially in this age of phone text messages belongs to none other than my delightful Mother.

I humbly challenge all of you out there reading this to try and decipher the 'hidden' message my mother is trying to tell me.

The answer will be given in a week.=)

Work as a B.U.G.....

2006-04-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

Work is like a bug that buzzes around your head, irritating you non-stop until you have no choice but to try and get it over with and kill it. But then, just when u think you have squished it flat, ten more come to its funeral! Arrgghhh.....

Cooking as therapy...

2006-03-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

Okay i know my last few entries seem abit depressed....all about light and darkness..black and white photos.. Luckily i managed to swim (ironic term to use i know) my way through the puddle of deadlines and realised that cooking can be quite a way to relief stress..here's how...

Seafood Spaghetti with Garlic Butter Sauce

Instructions

First, take a clove of garlic (or your work) and try to chop it up into tiny pieces for better digestion.

If unable to process it in time, proceed to use the back of knife to crush it instead, using fist to do the pounding. (be it at the garlic, or for wringling fists in air out of indignation and despair for not being able to do your work in time)

Second, do the same for a couple of shallots.

Third, put some butter (or yourself) in a pan and see how it/you heats up under pressure.

Fry the mashed garlic and onions in the butter. (but make sure it/you don't get too burnt out prematurely)

In another pot, dump all kinds of seafood such as prawns, scallops and calamari into boiling water. Let the whole thing (you and your work research findings) simmer so that in the end, you can get better stock at the bottom of the pot. (it rhymes!)

Cook the spaghetti while the seafood simmers.

Lastly, combine seafood, spaghetti and garlic butter in the pan, mixing it up evenly. (also applies to the combination of different project member's parts)

Add in the stock, salt and pepper (or bombastic chim words) to taste.

Wait til everything boils over before serving it up with a garnish of parsley (or a long sigh of relief).

P.S:for those of you who doubt,I DID cook the spaghetti in the above picture. I took the photo in my kitchen using one of my prettier plates.Haa.:P

Away from the sun

2006-03-23T22:42:00.001+08:00

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun

That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me

ps: feeling abit like im stuck hiding under a dunghole lately. it's either that or it means i desperately need to get a TAN!! haha...

Look up, Lift up!

2006-03-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when you are the most down, the only thing left to do is to lift your head and look up. That's when you will see the light.